Sunday, January 18, 2015

2015 Reading list and first book - CandyFreak

I recently saw a reading list that I have made my 2015 goal. It’s not full of book titles, but type of books, such as over 500 pages, a book taking place in my hometown, based on a true story, one with bad reviews, a color in the title, on that was published the year I was born, etc.  All in all there are 50 different types.



An additional goal is to review each one on Amazon, Goodreads (and here), something I quit doing about the time I started finishing books at 3am and then going to sleep.

Will I make the goal?  I know I will read many more books than that this year, but will I add variety to my reading or keeping with the same old formula?  Only time will tell.

Number one completed on the list was a book I started but never finished.  Started from page 1 and read completely through to the end, is Candyfreak: A Journey Through the Chocolate Underbelly of America, by Steve Almond.  I didn’t set out to read this book in particular, but last week, Garageman called me to his office (i.e. the garage) to listen to an interview on sports talk. You can imagine my total joy. As I listened to this very articulate and entertaining man talk about the book he had just written on football and why he both loves and loathes it, I became entranced. I decided to find his name (Garageman couldn’t remember) and the book (he couldn’t remember that either.  At the end of the program, he did remember that maybe the guys last name was Allman and 10 years ago or so, he wrote about all about candy, and his trip across America to small, family owned and run manufacturers and how the big three were slowing killing them off.

Eureka!  I had that book!  I started reading it, and for some reason never finished, so I did a little research and dug it out. (I also purchased Against Football: One Fan’s Reluctant Manifesto for later.)

Candyfreak made me squeal with delight, shake my head yes in knowing sympathy, and made my stomach pine and mouth water for all those pieces of sugary goodness that were mostly regional, and that are long gone, or very hard to find. It delves into the disgusting practices of the big three and how they pay retailers huge fees to stock only their goods, pricing mom and pop manufacturers out.  It led to discussions between Garageman and I about the lack of new candy and limited twists on the old, pathetic as they are, at least it’s something new.

I was thrilled to find my favorite hometown candy with its own chapter - Valomilk, and to this day it pisses me off greatly, that in order to buy a hometown made candy, I have to go to Cracker Barrel because of the stocking fees charged by grocery stores and encouraged by the big three.  I admit, for a long, long time, I was an M&M freak, but the minute I started watching NASCAR and saw that Mars sponsored a driver who must remain nameless in my household, I banned all Mars candy from crossing my threshold.  I still allow Nestle and Hershey, but no Mars products, since I protest not with signs and marches, but by withholding my dollars.

Anyway, back to the book.  It made me long for the days of Mary Janes, rock candy, root beer barrels, peanut clusters, buttons, wax fingers, and all those wonderful penny delights of my childhood. Thanks to Mr. Almond’s Freak Appendix, I now have websites to connect with certain candy fetishes, and I recently found The Vermont Country Store, who sells many of these same delights.  I’d give the book five thumbs up, but he said nicer things about other candy makers than he did Russell Sifers who makes Valomilks.  In my book, that makes Mr. Almond slightly suspicious.

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Madison Avenue and Hollywood Lie

Everywhere I go, from print to internet to screen, I am bombarded with descriptions and images of how a woman should look. If I were to believe it all, men only want to be involved with women who are (and subsequently, women only want to be) young, 5’9”, 115 lbs., tanned, toned, long wavy hair (preferably blonde), blue or green-eyed, with a flawless and totally smooth and unlined/unwrinkled face, and with legs long enough to wrap around an elephant. Personality need not be included.  For a long time…a very long time…I bemoaned the fact, I was short, far from thin, had stick-straight brown to auburn hair, brown eyes, stumpy little legs, small mouth, and eyelashes that refused to lengthen and curl no matter what I tried. Around age 12 or 13, I even remember one of my father’s sisters telling my family that I might be passably decent looking if I just lost a few pounds and the glasses, and they agreed. When those who are supposed to love you the most find fault with your looks, it takes a toll.

I have always felt like less in the looks department, and then I grew up.  Granted, it didn’t happen until I was 50 or so, but I learned to accept me for who I am, and found out I’m one helluva person, and can actually clean up pretty good despite….no….BECAUSE of what are considered flaws by many.

Every extra pound on my body (and I fully admit I could lose a lot of them) represents a wonderful meal with family and friends, enjoyed by all.  They stand for the love we generate around the supper table, at weddings, after funerals, at Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving, and far too many birthdays to count.

I do admit to coloring my hair to get rid of a tinge of grey over my ears, but my hairdresser says only until my eyebrows start to turn, and then we shall go au natural.  I treat myself to facials, and use high quality facial products to keep my skin from becoming dry and leathery, but I will never use chemicals or surgery to change my appearance.  I am me. I am unique. I am wonderful and it is my flaws that make me so.

Every line and wrinkle on my face represents a memory of a tear shed, a worry worried, or a laugh shared.  Why would anyone want to delete those wonderful pieces of life to appear less than what they are? The latest fad is for men too, to undergo facelifts and Botox treatments.  Why?  Are all these people so shallow and vain that appearance is what counts most? That what’s inside is negligible?

How empty are the lives that deem this necessary.  That’s not a question, by the way – it’s a statement.  How freaking shallow and devoid of what really counts is your life that you feel it required to change your appearance in order to fit in to a perceived notion of who you should be, whether it’s your insecurities or peer pressure pushing you in that direction?

Stand straight, let it sag, bag, wrinkle, and pucker. Smile. Let the inner you shine and be secure in the fact that you are real, and not a caricature of who you really are. There is a tall, 27 year old, voluptuous redhead inside me, and I let her take over my 64 year old 5’1-1/2”, overweight outside.  Guess what? People see the physical me, and love that crazy redhead inside. I refuse to hide anything or be someone I’m not.

Go jump in a lake Madison Avenue and Hollywood, and take your unrealistic ideals with you.  I don’t need you.  No one does.

Be secure and comfortable in who you really are, for once you start changing to please others, you lose yourself in the process.